I don’t know why they choose to do me like this.
First, they eavesdropped my conservations with frds on the phone.
Secondly, they secretly check my bag and stuff when im nt ard.
Now, they followed me when I went out.
Met up with victor at the coffee shop near our hse.
after some time we have settled down at the coffeeshop,
i saw my mum walking towards my direction.
i thou she came out to buy sth or what.
suddenly she came forward and talked to victor.
asking questions like.. why meet at such a late time, what we doing here, why he always ask me stay out til so late, are the two of us dating or whatever stuff..
then, i saw my dad appreared.
im was like.. wtf???
then my mum sat beside us.
more wtf...
so obvious she was like.. "spot-checking"???
hey come on, what does it means?
it might be a fruitful trip for her lar.
but to me, it was like..
where is the respect, understanding, esteem and value???
dont i, as their child deserves these??
i do can understand their concern and worries.
but this is way too much.
im sorry to say,
this family doesnt have any value to me anymore.
communication?
they never try to.. and they would nv try to.
i nearly cried in the coffeeshop just nw.
luckily victor was there to cheer me up.
*i must say sorry to victor. sry for what my mum did.*
well, what can i do now?
talk to them?
no,
no t-a-l-k in my mum's dictionary.
only s-h-o-u-t.
i really have no idea of what shld i do now.
maybe its my fault hur?
for depending financially on them.
its the money issue behind everything.
im spending their money and they think im spending far too much.
so what can i do now?
work?
save enough $ to move out?
or enough to fly overseas maybe?
they have hurt me deep enough.
tears aint enough to clean tt wound.
maybe blood do.
cutting myself is stil not as painful as how much they have hurt me.
