failed my global marketing test.
felt furking demoralized and down.
dont know why this time i got so affected by test result.
seriously, i dont get it la.. why i would flunk.
anyway,
cried ..
and moved on.
pressured.. from studies and family.
sigh

okay.
been busy with sch work,
grp reports and individual reports.
dont come and keep asking why im like so busy and what im busy with.
pls..
i dont think and i dont see.. why i cant be busy with my sch works.
marketing reports..
are not a thing easy to understand and to complete..
and dont try to understand it when you are not a marketing student k.
also, i dont know abt other courses projects.. and i cant comment anything.
but marketing reports are aint easy as compared i believed.



some of my frds must be thinking..
"wow.. karen will so serious one meh??"
"aiyah.. karen say say only.. wun do one"


all i can say is,
it depends whether i really wanna put in effort to do or not.
and this term,
i really wanna prove and do sth gd.
since i alrdy started doing most the stuff..
why not go all the way and present the best?



im alrdy farkin ill and feeling so terrible.
dont do anything which can make me more piss such as nagging, kp talking to me when i alrdy say im busy, kp asking what im doin and such..
thanks

been feeling so stress.
sem3.2 is a hell torture.
so many projects and so many individual assignments and tests.
nearly broke down last night.
plus...
been so confused and lost about my life and direction after poly grad.
just three more weeks to the end of my poly life.
so whats life after poly??
work?
going for a degree study?
if im going to study?
where can or shld i go??
sim? mdis? psb? kaplan?
if i were to work.. as???
my life is filled with negativity now,
being stressed, lost, confused and impatience.
worst still, lack of slp.
seriously lack of it.
resulting in my bad temper and stone-ing
sigh.
this is the kind of situation when i start praying and looking for God's light.
lol.

went imc lect this noon.
first imc lect for me.
*grin*
hello peepx!
i know i dont always attend lect..
but no nd to react like this: (after lecture, outside lt theatre)
kar mun: karen bay! u came for lect ah?!! or u just reached sch??
mindy: aaa..! lect finished alrdy.. u come sch for what?? u have tutorial ah???
me: @%#&^$%&*$%@$!
wah lao!

minutes before 7.
not yet sleep.
was doing individual journal for entrepreneurship.
i hate this subj =(



been thinking..
to continue study after poly grad or to find a full time job.
freaking confused.

just done my report.
went up frdster.
was browsing thru..
then was viewing my cousin's profile.
in her photos.. she put the photo of her and grandma.
i miss her too..
=(

everytime i think of grandma,
tears will start rolling.
is it cos of guilt and regrets that ive not spend enough time with her?
or just misses..?