i begin to hate myself.
everything i do seems so wrong.
helpless.

im a burden.
in my family,
friends..
and every presence of mine is a burden.

i wanna escape.
but im so scared and lonely.
i wanna fight.
but im alrdy so tired.

really so confused now.
dont know what to do.

i felt even more helpless and weak after crying.
but i cldnt help it.
the tears just kp on flowing and dropping.

im nt numb.
just ache all over.

whee~
movie date with yimei.
my sweetest and "funniest" friend.
LOL.
die hard 4.0 was dope!
cool man!
thanks yimei for this swt and enjoyable day.
been thinking why there is such a sweet and understanding girl in the world.
she has totally no temper, tons and tons of patience..
and unlimited quanitity and quality of sweetness.
LOL.
i love yimei~~!
*hug*
*looking forward to the next IKEA outing.. LOL*
promise: loads of pic this coming wed* =]

seriously,
i dont know why God created pests.
those mother fucking pests.
annoying and disgusting.
and seriously,
i dont know why they like to appear in my room.
its like damn fucking piss.
moth and beetles.
damn them!
appearing in my room for the continuous 2 or 3 nights.
fuck.
wish i can move to a cleaner and newer living environment.
this estate sucks.

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

yes,
i may be stubborn.
esp when ive reached the limit that i can take.
and,
i can be as mean as i cld.

everyone makes mistake.
think my biggest mistake is to treat my friends better than myself.
i mean.. those really close one.


time pass..
i stil can find no one who can really understand me.
after so many years,
the same conflict and the same problem.
so tired.


no,
maybe my biggest mistake is the choice of frds i have made.


maybe..
life would be better off w/o them.
i shld start everything,
my whole life,
afresh.



i dont understand..
why the ppl you love most.
make you cry the most too.

alright, so proud and happy to receive this certificate.

reggae 1 course by O school.

whee~~

today had the last lesson which ended 45 min later than the supposed time.

had so much fun and sense of achievement!

hehe.. i love the last session where everyone stood in a circle and each one came up to the middle and freestyle.

dance and fun and passion =)

okay, another day with my dear xuelin.

haha.. another "throw the face" day..

we had new names.. i named AH-KUM, she named AH-GONG.

so togther, we.. kum gong..

=s

my new desktop wallpaper!
heheees
happiieee life=)

living for the sake of living.
no ups and downs for me.
it just keeps going down and down.

took up two tuition jobs last week.
one P5 girl and a P3 boy.
been telling myself to be a responsible tutor.
must help them achieve better grades and to be their permanent tutor.
*grin grin*
but thinking.. do i look so scary?? fierce?? or what?!
every lesson i can sensed the fear in them while im teaching.
whatever it is..
i treat them like my own son and daughter.
LOL.
didnt know i will enjoy teaching this much.
can actually feel the satisfaction, a great one indeed.
=)


been reflecting and thinking on my life.
trying to determine what i really want and who i really need.
used to place friends in front of family.
been putting much focus and concern for my friends than my family.
then i began to realise, some friends dont appreciate.
or worse still, they dont seems to understand you after so many years of frdship.
and when in times of need and help, they arent ard to support you.
friend's loyalty and concern..
not everyone deserve it.


set up some goals for myself.
may sound funny..
but..
at least still a aim in life cann

1. find a marketing job and hold on for at least one yr. main aim is to gain experience.
2. buy myself a Gucci bag (at least a medium size one) before the age of 23
3. get car license before the age of 24
4. buy a car (Honda or Mazda) before the age of 3

time to set some goals if you havent have one!=)

Guys Think You're Easy to Be With... But Not Easy

You're definitely a flirt - and a good one. But you also know that you shouldn't make a move on any cute guy who passes by. You save your seductive moves for someone who already knows the real you. That way, your sex appeal is just part of the whole package.

Are You An Easy Girl?

You're a Part Time Maneater

While you're not a black widow, you've definitely left a few guys feeling used and abused. You're only out for fun, but sometimes you get a little carried away with your flirting. Cute guys tend to make you lose control. You really can't help it! You're a good girl at heart... you just can't help but let your bad girl side out sometimes!

Are You a Maneater?

You Are Totally Prissy

People should call you princess - that is, if they don't already. You like everything "just so" ...and you don't mind complaining if you're not getting what you want. You're freaked out by anything gross, dirty, or low class. You definitely need to be protected from the world. And while people usually don't mind protecting you, you're prissy antics can get a bit annoying.

How Prissy Are You?